You know what anime I’ve actually been watching lately? Well, there’s a few; Durarara is one, and Code Geass and Nabari and such are others… but I’ve been having a tea party with nostalgia. See, though not technically the first anime I ever saw, I count it as perhaps the anime that started my obsession; Cardcaptor Sakura. If you’ve heard of it as ‘Cardcaptors’ only, get out – the dubbed version is not even fit to… look, it was absolute crap, all right? So if you know of Yukito as Julian, Tomoyo as Madison, and Touya as Tory… GET OUT.
Anyway, Cardcaptor Sakura is basically about a twelve-year-old girl who accidentally scatters 52 magical cards created by the magician Clow Reed. As a result, she has to collect them up again and turn them back into cards – she has a bit of magic which gradually grows more potent throughout the 70 episode long anime. Anyway, a boy from Hong Kong has been sent by his family to collect the cards as well and initially is Sakura’s rival and is arrogant and all that towards her, but in a way that you still find him endearing, bless him. His name is Syaoran Li. Sakura’s best friend is Tomoyo Daidouji, and she knows about it all and Sakura has a little ‘plush toy’ called Kero who is actually the Guardian of the Clow Cards. The series is spent on her collecting the cards while maintaining her personal life as well etc. The third series takes a bend in the path, but I won’t get into it.
Well recently I got bored of the crappy fan fictions so I went onto TV Tropes… be careful, as side effects of this web site include never having a life again due to dependence on computer and internet access. Anyway I was looking into the fan fic recs and the only one that vaguely appealed to me was a fic called Never Mind Me by watercircle.
Words cannot describe the amazing-ness of this story.
So beautiful. So sad. So heartwarming. The movie world has a lot to learn from this writer. The impact she (I believe it would be a she, I should probably check) creates with the simplest of sentences is inspiring.
It’s about Syaoran being a ghost and when he finds out that Sakura’s going to die prematurely, he decides to make a sacrifice to save her. I settled in for a cliche story to pass the time. So this was me at the start:
But by the end of the second chapter I was like… not bad…
And then we get this: [“I’ll watch her,” Syaoran said, speaking as if he were taking on a grave responsibility. “I’ll make sure nothing happens to her.”] No, he doesn’t fancy her yet or anything. It’s just a kindness; and it is quite well played. And it continues.
[“Now this part is very important,” Clow said, looking directly into Syaoran’s eyes. “Your energy level was fairly high, but it will only give you thirty days at the most. The full moon seems to slow the process of deconstruction, but once it wanes, you will begin to slip back into the void. Do you understand, Syaoran? You have until the new moon to take care of your business. After that, it’s all over.”
Syaoran nodded solemnly. The concept of time was still foreign to him, but he figured he’d catch on eventually. “I understand. Until the new moon.”
The magician smiled softy, a knowing twinkle in his eye. “You have no idea what that really means, do you? But you will. It’s hard not to count the days as you live them. The new moon will come faster than you think.”]
The concept of time is cleverly approached in this; humanity is constantly aware of time – that it is running out, that time moves too quickly or too slowly. Syaoran as a ghost has never paid much attention to time and doesn’t really understand the full limitations he’s been given. So now Syaoran is ‘human’ for all intents and purposes for 30 days.
In fact there are a lot of things that Syaoran has to adjust to over a limited space of time. Unaccustomed to communicating with anyone, or being seen by anyone, he doesn’t really think about the fact that people blink for example. He doesn’t know what the fourth day of every month means. He doesn’t realise what a strange impression he’s leaving but fortunately he’s very single-minded; Sakura must be saved.
Sadly… it turns out, Syaoran’s becoming ‘alive’ to protect her is the cause of her premature death; it is a paradox. Syaoran broke the laws of life and death and the balance was disturbed. Sakura, his complete opposite, must therefore die to correct it. Syaoran will rejoin The Void at the end of 30 days which would correct the balance as well, but in the meantime everything’s a little messy. So, Syaoran is suddenly laden with guilt and furthers his resolve to protect Sakura for the duration of his ‘life’ and then he will leave in peace.
My face at this point:
So since this story is so worthy, so worthy of being a novel in and of itself, I’ve decided to review it chapter by chapter, starting at the start and you’ll see why I broke down by the end. So look forward to that!